Don\\\'t Look Back Tricia
Author : Joni L. Merwin

My mind tends to cling
to the past.
To the times when we were indulged in happiness
that I thought would
forever last.

You seemed so honest
& your intentions seemed true.
Now months have flown by
& I feel like I never knew you

I have to convince myself daily, that you aren\\\'t the one
Who can take away my sadness
& start again where we
once begun.

I can\\\'t look back
on what we once were.
For what I have there is
no remedy there is no cure.

Memories remain shaded
in every part of my mind.
A sadness flows through me
like a river
when I know I need to leave your existence behind.

You hurt me nonetheless
unintentional or not.
I started to give up on you
but you had to return & recapture what I had forgot.

Looking back only
prevents me from moving on.
I wish you would see the light
realizing what you had
when it\\\'s dead and gone.

But wishes of what your heart will feel I know you\\\'re
incapable to give.
Holding onto the past is
how you choose to live.

You looked back
and held onto to the past.
Maybe that\\\'s why you took your feelings away & ran from
you and me so fast.

You don\\\'t just mouth the words
that you etched into my heart.
You always gave me empty promises, never finishing
what you\\\'d start.

Don\\\'t look back
I remind myself every minute
of every existing day.
Knowing that if I went back
you would break my heart
again some way.

I must retrain my heart
in forgetting the sacred
memory of you.
Accept that losing you is my destiny and that heartbreak
was all we really ever knew.